Thursday, September 06, 2007
i'm finding solace in my room right now. i can tell you i'm suffering from an emotional upwreak. it is drawn to me that i have been pms-ing my week through. the thought of this irks me. what they have done to my brain, bringing a surge of emotional downpour. i think i have been kicking a big fuss. damn, this is sick. why do i have to suffer from this. yea, poor inner strength, bullshit.
i'm a fantatic of emotions right now, yea yea, what can i say? i'm appreciating time alone, facing this four walls of my rooms, looking through the windows , admiring the serenity surrounding. It's always nice being left alone, it gives you sufficient time to think, i hope. ok, maybe not, but i'm trying to.
life is such a drama. i never knew i would say this, but ya, holding a baggage full of insercurities, you will never figure out that i'm actually am dependent. Gosh, i thought to say i was independent. now where the i-n? where ever it went, its hiding away.
shit, now the complete silence in my room is really deafening. so whats with that emotional roller coaster. i need some fresh air, i need some greeneries. brush my fears away. maybe i shall find a dome and hide.
anyway, whats with plans, when i'm always ditching it.
